Today...

Today I find myself with a lot on my mind. Well, that's actually pretty much par for the course, but what's different is that last night I managed to get eleven hours of much-needed sleep. (Thank you, NyQuil!) So now I find myself without the exhaustion-induced speed bump to keep it everything at a more manageable level.

I've said very little about what's been going on in my life during the past few months. In part that's because even I don't know what to make of it yet, even as I scramble to figure out what it all actually means.. and more importantly, where I go from here.

It's the murky nature of the future that has me twisting into headaches; and not because of places I do not want to go.... but instead, because of what/where I do want, and my inability to figure out the general path -- or heck, even the next step or two.

Time is not on my side here, yet perversely, I have nothing but time. Patience and urgency, in conflict yet balanced, a paradox. One of many.

So what's coming down the pipeline? I am selling my house and moving as soon as realistically possible. Moving where? That's the loaded question that keeps me up at night even as I know there's nothing I can do about it in the short term.. but wait.

In the short term though... things have actually been pretty nice, even though I cannot see more than a step or two ahead. I'm doing what I want to do... for myself, and the plans I am making are both good for me and true to myself, and will hold no matter where the long term takes me, and indeed, will likely effect it.

What can I say, life is strange, wonderful.. and beautiful.

Speaking of beauty, expect more photos.