More thoughts

The lessons of '08 are still rolling in for me, and they're still doozeys. But '08 is almost over, and I've taken them to heart this time. I may write more on that here, I may not. But I digress.

I need a partner. I hate to admit it, but I really do. I need a partner in crime. I need a partner for amazing sex. I need a partner to find, create, and share beauty with. The sum is so much greater than the parts.

It's so hard to get out and do this stuff by myself, for myself, but I have to do it, even if alone. But that's when I feel the gaping emptiness most acutely -- my need to share, to give.. finds nothing, and oh how does it hurt.

But having the wrong person along.. leaves me closed up and incapable of opening up enough to engage in the experience.. and renders the whole thing pointless.

When you find the right people, you have to hold on to them, because they are as precious a life itself... and them set them free, and they will remain.