[diaryland] power and angels

morning now. 27 degrees outside. Should have someone coming within a couple of hours to take care of the heater. Good thing. I'm shivering violently now.

Last night was rather...interesting. I've been accused of being many things in the past.. but never an angel. Well, aside from being one of the nicest things anyone's ever said to me, it set me thinking. (..of course..)

I don't think I'm an angel. At least not in the Biblical sense.. I'm not innocent. The fact that I am flesh and blood has been objectively proven many times over. I make mistakes. Sometimes big ones. ..and I have nothing I can turn to for guidance.

But extrapolating a bit, using different definitions of "angel", who knows? If you define an angel by their actions instead of their 'being' then I suppose I could be. Along with many others.

And I will be the one to hold you down..

Kiss your soul...

I'll take your breath away..and after that

wipe away the tears..

I'll hold you down..

Damn, I seem to be on a real Sarah tear lately. :)

...But I'm no angel. A "mere" mortal, doing the best I can.

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"I Know you."

"Do you know me?"

On a somewhat related yet tangential note, another one of my quirks came up. I'm always underestimated. By myself, often enough, but mostly by everyone else.

I haven't found anything I'm not capable of excelling in, if I set my mind to it. Well, except for committing myself to a path. The only limits are the ones I impose on myself.. I have NEVER backed down from something.

I've learned to rely on myself. Seek counsel from myself. Comfort myself. Love myself. What goes around comes around.

But I digress. I must confess that I like being underestimated. "And that is why you fail!" It gives me an edge if it comes down to that... Few people [can/will] "know" me differently. The few that earn my trust and respect. Those who recognize me for who I am. What I am. And love me anyway.

There's much more to me than meets the eye. Much more strength. Much more power. I'm very dangerous. But if this "dangerous" power I seem to have is focused into "good".. would I be an angel?

If I keep underestimating myself, never.

Peace. Love. Life.

To all.

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